The End of An Era

Currently alone at home.

Parents are away on a trip so I came home to take care of my cats.

Yesterday I made a confession, and I know how it might affect a lot of people, but I had to. Boy the emotion that hit me was massive. I couldn't process it yesterday, but today, it hit like a wave.

All the emotion that I was hiding couldn't be contained anymore. I cried a river, I can't take this anymore. The sacrifice I have to make, the adjustment I have to face. Why? Years down the drain, years that will abruptly come to an end. They say leaving your comfort zone is a way to gain, but will it be worth the pain?

When I said I hate uncertainty, I really meant it. I hate that everything is unclear now, I hate that I am the one that have to sacrifice. Why me? Why do you have to force me? I need answers, but the only one remains is questions. 

It's the end of an era, but it's the beginning of a new chapter. 

But why only sadness is filling my mind?